Feels like I've been off the radar for a couple of weeks, digitally/ mentally/ emotionally, but time they are a changing and the weather is too. Have spent the last week outside in the sun working in the garden since Noel left and hints of a tan are starting to show. Hope to lose my pasty English tint before I get to Florida next month Spain in June.

I got a huge response from you guys from my previous post about specialists, so thanks, I really needed it. Plans are once again falling into place and concrete is being set. The pitfalls my job may be wide and many, but the benefits are great. I'm taking Simon to Spain for a 3 weeks (4 weeks including driving there and back) sometime around June which should be pretty cool, if anyone is in the area around then we have a massive house and 2 pools , 5 mins walk from the Mediterranean. I hope going nude isn't too much of a faux pas!

Also I haven't been sitting around doing nothing for the last couple of weeks, I've been slowly building sites and learning new and interesting ways of designing things. Parallax [disclaimer: still in beta] (Also I was told my comments are broken so will check it out when I have time.)

(Disclaimer, I'm not that awesome)

Why must everyone be a specialist in there field? I feel like there is the massive push to be some master of a specified discipline or else your a failure. I really like doing different things and I enjoy being pretty good at most things I do. Not to blow my own horn, but I'm pretty great at just about anything. Photography, Kayaking, Web Design, Electronics, Anatomy & Physiology, Navigation, Sports (pretty much all of them), Driving, Construction, Massage, Horticulture, every Job I've ever had, Cooking, Cleaning, Maths, Science, Music, Teaching, Leading, being a greasy Salesman, the list goes on. I'm adaptable as every human is, I'm a product of evolution, but should I evolve to suck at some things so I can 'focus' on one thing? Do I have undiagnosed ADD?

But where is the place for the Jack of all trades in this over specialized world? Do I continue to push in one direction that I'm not so thrilled with because I want to be "successful"? Or is there another way? If I break it down to what I really enjoy, then all I want to do is lay in the sun, go surfing, self-paced learning and to explore. I should have been an explorer. Maybe that's in my genes as an ex-pat, not a convict Australian, but an adventure seeking Kiwi.

I feel like there is no place for me except as a mediocre player in a game with pros. Pros who ass I could kick I all other fields. I don't want that. I think its why I want the apocalypse to come, I would love rebuild the post-apocalyptic world, sustainable farming, No.8 wire mentality, teaching, exploring, trading etc. I want the queen to give me some ships and men and send me to find the new New World. Is that too much to ask?

I guess everyone has these problems, I'm no one special in nowhere important doing nothing so great. This is a bit of a digression from my regular posts, but I started this as an outlet for the benefit of my sanity, so you get to peek in my brain. Any ideas? This was a bit of an unproductive rant but I feel better. For now.